in the end, i only said goodbye to the few that mattered. i'm not sure if i did the right thing to not say anything to the majority. but i figure that if they didn't care enough to ask about me directly or come talk to me, then i didn't need to return the gesture.
somehow i didn't feel right putting on a smile to thank this girl, even though she had helped me in the past. in recent times she was more inclined to walk past me pretending that i wasn't there even though i was right in her face? and chiding me for something that wasn't even my fault and having double standards herself? that was totally unbelievable. and unacceptable.
on the other end of the spectrum, two of the older branch managers touched me. i took the initiative to call one of them, and even without knowing where i might be heading to, he said that i would do well wherever i go. and he told the other branch managers just that when they were talking about me. he didn't work directly with me at all, but he had so much faith in me? it made me think that i made the right choice after all.
and my bosses, i can't thank them enough. the day i tendered, P called me in to find out why. he called me in the next morning to discuss my future plans after hearing from M. then he asked my direct boss to get me to reconsider. and asked me directly too. On my last day, he still had a nice chat with me and offered to help refer me if required. As for M, he already knew what was coming and tried his best to retain me even after my letter went to hr. but his offer of 'reporting directly to him' wouldn't have made a difference in this environment. my mobile bosses have of course helped me the most during my tenor in secured.
i liked the autonomy of my role and my co-workers, but obviously the push factors came out stronger. at head office they kept telling me no, it can't be done..no, it hasn't been done, no this, no that. my first thought was always, 'there has to be a way!' or 'let's try!' i refused to accept that things could only be done a certain way. but my supervisor seemed to have given up and were telling us that we could only 'accept'. what sort of progress would we have with that mentality? we need to rise above, not get dragged down. (again, it is easier said than done).
one day, hopefully, things would get changed there. but until that happens, it's not heart-friendly. still, it was the people who made the place a pleasant work environment. they were the very core of the place. and hand to heart, i hope that they don't forget that.
looking back, it was still a very huge risk for me to leave. am living on tenterhooks everyday. wish me luck for my next chapter.
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