Tuesday, July 19, 2016

Why can't he understand that work shouldn't be everything? If I gave up a good job, promotion and big bonus in the middle of everything, why can't he look for something that doesn't take him away from us almost always? He's not even sure that he would stay on, so why work so blindly. He says I'm not understanding. That he is 'working'. If I don't have time for a proper breakfast, lunch or dinner. If I don't even have time to leisurely bathe, or at all. If I don't even have time to answer nature's call because that would leave a restless or screaming baby behind. If the only respite I have all day is perhaps a 10 minute sit down from start to end day. Most days I don't even watch the television at all. Yet he needs his space to zone out from working. How about me. When can I zone out without worrying about undone chores or preparing her next feed. Does he understand that I would rather 'work' than be working at home 24/7? At least lunch would be a hurried affair and not half-eaten or forgone. At least conversations will be continuous instead of being cut off 5 minutes into the call because the baby did not really get to sleep. Switch roles with me and see if you truly understand. Not for a day but permanently.