melancholy

i'm almost never gonna find enough time on my hands to do the things i want to:

read up on financial supplements/investment books
read the bible regularly
sleep (time's really precious!)
do my work (it's never-ending)
run regularly (the thought of running the year-end 42km scares me.)
watch tv

miss going back to school. all them lectures, tutorials and seminars almost seem fun now. am waiting to see if there's a work-school divide among friends. can feel it sometimes. but everyone's so caught up with their own stuff, i understand.

though i'm now more active in prayer meetings and church, it still feels foreign. a little superficial. i don't wanna be a sunday catholic. need to live my life better. but it's a lil hard to integrate cos the people there are speak a different lingo. am still giving it another try.

for you, i will.